Monday, September 15, 2014

where have you been?

Well?  What's your excuse?  Where have you been?  Oh, well.  Me, well I have been busy.  Yes, busy doing stuff, like worrying and procrastinating, and trying to remove myself from social media, gardening ,homeschooling some kids and taking kids to karate.   But mostly I have been trying to have some storybook life that I THINK EVERYONE ELSE HAS.  Then I realized, it's all a lie.  A BIG FAT LIE. 

I am going to quit trying to be it all.  I am just going to be me.  I love to craft and create and I am tired of not doing it.  I suck at making new friends and trying to be someone I am definitely not.  Like me or not, I'm here to stay. 

I hate the humidity and the bugs here.  I want cool weather.  I want to live in Maine.  Ugh.  I so miss fall. Like a lot.  Leaves. Ugh, I miss them.  North Georgia would be a better fit for us.  But no way we are moving, so it's here we shall stay.  I will make the best of it. 

I bought a red couch today, crimson to be exact.  I am going to put chevron print pillows on it.  I have plans for a big chevron print above my couch in the family room I am going to make it too.  Just you wait and see.  I am so happy tonight because I don't have to go back to work for 3 days.  Well, I do , but not to work, only for class.  Ahhh.   I sat tonight and read Family Circle and Family Fun and it was awesome.  It's all about fall.  Crisp.  All my favorite earthy colors.  Do you know when the last time was I sat and really, really read a magazine?  Forever ago.  That's when. This life is too short for all the dang worrying and overachieving I have been doing.  Live in the moment.  Enjoy.  I haven't been enjoying anything lately.  I've been worrying and fretting over stupid shit that means nothing in the big scheme of things.  Get lost meaningless crap, I have no time for you.  The dogs help, they so love unconditionally.

me

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