It is January 15 today...seems I am a little late for the New Years Resolution thing, huh? Well, I've been mulling this one over and it's taken a bit of time.
I know there are parts of my life I don't love so much, parts of me too. Like as much as I love being organized, its more of an obsession. Things have to be where they belong or it makes me anxious. Lol. That sounds so ridiculous, but it's so true! I have all these crafty ideas, but I never get to them because I am too worried about the mess it will make, or I end of thinking I have to re organize everything before I start! So there's one resolution.
1. Stop worrying about the mess and just enjoy the process!!
My relationship with my kids, this is a biggie! I'm a put downer. I feel like I am constantly reprimanding them, telling them what to do or how to do it better. I don't feel like we have any fun together. I mean, we do, but it's also interspersed with me correcting them or reminding them to clean up after themselves, put things away. Or me yelling because I am stressed to the limit. I don't want my kids to be afraid of me. I want them to love being around me and I want it to show how much I enjoy being around them. I want them to know that I love them unconditionally, not because they behaved a certain way. I want to be their biggest fan, their biggest encourager. I want to life them up, not put them down. so....
2. Enjoy my kids everyday and speak kind and encouraging words to them.
I have a huge sarcastic streak that at times can be useful, but then it blends over into a negative mood and it's not so nice. I am judgemental and sometimes downright mean. I don't want to be that. I guess I fall into it because I think people don't always do their part and since I am a control freak (yes I said it!) I gauge other peoples worth by how much like me they are. Again, very silly. I know I am not anywhere near perfect, but I am confident and perceived weakness is a big problem for me. So that leads me to #3,,,,
3: Embrace my own imperfection and accept people as they are.
All of these fall into the biggest resolution and that one is to just BE POSITIVE despite circumstances. Don't freak out, don't yell, don't blame everyone around you. Jut keep on keeping on. I waste more time worrying about stuff and replaying it in my head, and keeping tabs on who did what that it's sickening. Who cares? At the end of the day, who really cares? I don't want it to be me. I'm not keeping score.
4: Positive mood.
and that's it!