stubborn dog

I am currently charging my brand new fancy Stubborn Dog Collar for this beast of a dog who doesn't want to listen.  I now understand Husky temperament.  He so COMPLETELY ignores any command. We shall see, dog, we shall see.

God healed it.

Sam had a little pain on his boy parts yesterday. So we put cream on it and let it be. Tonight I asked it how his wiener was.  His response?

"It feels better.  I think God healed it."

Yes, Sam, yes He did.  He healed your wiener.

The big E

My mind has been on Ebola. Ebola, it's not just here in the US, it's here in Georgia...just four hours north of here situated at Emory Hospital.  My head was spinning today with thoughts of just becoming outright doomsday preppers and never leaving our property, to concerns over being in public places.  You just never know.  I work in the ER. It's not so far fetched to think that someone could just walk in and have it.  We have exchange students at the University...and now that the second infected nurse flew on that flight...how do you know you aren't meeting up with the person who sat next to her?  It's scary stuff, but then I think about how the people in West Africa have been dealing with it for years.  Dealing with it an not becoming infected themselves.  Today, our work sent out an e mail looking to start and Ebola team..a prep team who would be trained to take care of these patients should they present.  I volunteered.  Not because I want to expose myself, but because this world is a precarious one and the threat is real.  I want to know how to protect myself and my family.  I want to know how to put the gear on correctly.  I want to have at least a fighting chance.  I don't want to be ill prepared when the alleged threat becomes a reality.  Everytime I read the news it becomes more and more clear to me that this world, our world, is on it's last days.  Not to sound morbid, but it is.  I'm sad because my children are small and I want them to have a beautiful life, not one filled with fear and viruses and death.  So I will shield them by educating myself.   I love them all too much to not prepare.

Life at home{school}

I am not sure my kids are entirely sold on it.  I'm not sure I am entirely sold on it.  Everyday I have my doubts, my worries, my fears {am I alienating them?....ruining their social life?}  and then I have a moment of clarity.  I might meet someone, a younger person who was raised in public school and they are entirely, ridiculously stupid.  I mean stupid like you can't take care of yourself at all if you cut your finger.  You can't begin to think how to fix the problem you got yourself into.  I want my kids to know things, to be able to solve things for themselves, not just have someone teach them how to robotically go through life.  I want creative and exhuberant, quiet, smart...little thinkers.  I don't want them to be perfect...I want them to be themselves. 

We went on two field trips so far...one to the Fire Station and one to Oatland Island Nature Center.  How cool do you feel when everyone else is stuck in school and you're at the beach?  Pretty darn cool!

OATLAND ISLAND NATURE CENTER

SAVANNAH, GEORGIA

 



 

WHO DOESN'T LOVE AN OWL?

 

GIANT BIRD NEST...SAM IS LAYING AN EGG, LOL

 

VULTURES...YUK

 

UP THE RAMP!

 

GRAY WOLVES...VERY, VERY AWESOME.

 

This was a pretty cool field trip.  The kids loved it and we really enjoyed it too.  Very reasonably priced and lots to see...and it's only about 10 more minutes onto Tybee Island from here!

 

TYBEE ISLAND, GEORGIA

 

 

FIRST STEPS INTO THE OCEAN :)

 

HE SHOULD ALWAYS BE THIS CAREFREE!

 

 

BROOKLET FIRE STATION

BROOKLET, GA

 

 

HERE WE ARE WAITING FOR FIREFIGHTER STEVE!

 

We have had lots of fun so far in our first 3 months...here's to the next three months!

 

sue

 

my fake smile

I feel like I should make a fake smiley face, glue it on a popsicle stick and hold it up to my head.  That's how smiley I feel lately.  I am just so frustrated.  Frustrated that I feel stuck in the mud, that I am confined into this little life I am not happy with.  Sad that I can't live the life I want, do the things I want to do.  Live the life I planned.  I tell myself God has me here for a reason.  A purpose.  I know I just feel like I could be so much more useful at home.  I am happy at home.  I hate being away from it.  I want to be with my kids.  I want to be awake for my kids, lol. It is sometimes so overwhelming to day in and day out hear about how sick people are, to hear their woes.  It's like there is no ray of sunshine in that whole place.  Everybody complains, me too!  I am doing it right now.  I am just so frustrated.  I need to focus on the good.  It's hard though.  My fuse is short there and at home and I am just downright unhappy.  I want to homestead my little plot here and I feel like I can't because other people aren't pulling their weight.  I always seem to feel like someone else is keeping me from it, or is that my excuse?  I don't know.  I'm tired of always being the one who has to come up with the plan.  How about if someone else be the grown up for a while?  I am a micromanager though.  So it's hard.  I want to give it up, but I can't.  lol  what a dilemma that is. 

What would it take to make me truly happy?  How could I achieve it? 

where have you been?

Well?  What's your excuse?  Where have you been?  Oh, well.  Me, well I have been busy.  Yes, busy doing stuff, like worrying and procrastinating, and trying to remove myself from social media, gardening ,homeschooling some kids and taking kids to karate.   But mostly I have been trying to have some storybook life that I THINK EVERYONE ELSE HAS.  Then I realized, it's all a lie.  A BIG FAT LIE. 

I am going to quit trying to be it all.  I am just going to be me.  I love to craft and create and I am tired of not doing it.  I suck at making new friends and trying to be someone I am definitely not.  Like me or not, I'm here to stay. 

I hate the humidity and the bugs here.  I want cool weather.  I want to live in Maine.  Ugh.  I so miss fall. Like a lot.  Leaves. Ugh, I miss them.  North Georgia would be a better fit for us.  But no way we are moving, so it's here we shall stay.  I will make the best of it. 

I bought a red couch today, crimson to be exact.  I am going to put chevron print pillows on it.  I have plans for a big chevron print above my couch in the family room I am going to make it too.  Just you wait and see.  I am so happy tonight because I don't have to go back to work for 3 days.  Well, I do , but not to work, only for class.  Ahhh.   I sat tonight and read Family Circle and Family Fun and it was awesome.  It's all about fall.  Crisp.  All my favorite earthy colors.  Do you know when the last time was I sat and really, really read a magazine?  Forever ago.  That's when. This life is too short for all the dang worrying and overachieving I have been doing.  Live in the moment.  Enjoy.  I haven't been enjoying anything lately.  I've been worrying and fretting over stupid shit that means nothing in the big scheme of things.  Get lost meaningless crap, I have no time for you.  The dogs help, they so love unconditionally.

me

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCAS!!!!

 

 

Happy 1st Birthday Lucas!

 

Chocolate cake!